When you go to a job interview of a job you already have had with nothing to gain you don't feel:nervous, joy, excitement, challenge. What you do feel is a slight despair in settling for the easiest option, an acceptance of not challenging yourself. I am lazy now. The food stamp office broke me for today. There is too much sadness there. Too many woman finding the only pride that have ever felt by justifying their young babies in this terrible world. Woman actually verbally fighting over who is a better mother with out creating a support network to help one another out. The scene was tragic and I am an impostor.
I will never have children and I will never see this world as a good place to continue the parasitic nature of the human existence. Gobble, gobble, gobble the poor with the bad food and the bad work environment don't let them sit down for a second. Lets breath the bad air and never expand mass transit--there could be less smog that way.
I am negative today and now I must go a fake the excitement of selling to people. Justify your over payed jobs by spending the money on crap you don't need or want. But you like the adventure of being humored and sold anything to block out the despair of having nothing to build.
